BUSY - Being Under Satan's Yolk

I'm continuing on with my last post, as it seems so poignant and timely and has been on my heart.

BUSY - Being Under Satan's Yolk
The more we take on, the more we do, the more that the enemy takes, the more we allow him to take. We do more, society thinks we have accomplished more, we think we are doing more, getting more. We strive to get that promotion at work, we work harder and longer hours, sacrificing our friends, family and personal lives. We get the promotion and continue working harder, continue sacrificing. We use work as an excuse to not engage in our life, to escape from our life. We have made our work our life. Work is just on of the many vices that we cling to, to escape from our lives or that we believe is our life.
What happens when the work is no longer there? What happens when you are forced to not work, to take a break, to pause? At times, my life has been unbearable, overwhelming. I tended to ignore some of the obvious things in my life, more importantly, I ignored myself. I defined myself by my success, by my work. Only to discover that it can all be taken away so quickly. And I was left standing alone, spinning in circles, wondering who I am, where I am going, what I am doing.
The last few years, I have put my heart and soul into working, into trying to further a business that in constant competition for me. I have sacrificed who I am and what I believe in to get the business further along. The last few months have been an awakening for me. I have taken the time to reflect and to ask questions about myself. I have discovered that I was chasing the mystical unicorn, striving for something that I would not be able to reach and made myself believe that I could get there on my own power. How silly of me and how silly that I would actually think that way. That mystical unicorn is gone and I am realizing that my hard work and effort has been under false pretense. I have made myself busy for someone else, for something else. And realizing that has been a great awakening for me.
At times, I still feel like I am spinning in a circle and looking for a way off the ride. And there are times of clarity along the way. Moments when the ride seems to stop and I can see clearly and the path which I need to take is clear before me. These moments, this clarification, happens when I pause, when I stop. When I stop being busy.